I feel bad that I’ve been away from blogging on here for Ryu’s sake and for my sake trying to organize everything on here. Aside from Ryu misplacing the battery to my camera being the reason why I haven’t posted there’s been a lot of problems at home. I’m not quite sure if this would be the perfect place to share all of this considering this blog is mainly about Ryu. However, I think that because this does involve Ryu I thought that it might be sort of soothing to share with you all what’s been going on.

I’m not sure how many of you are single parents out there, but it sure is hard to be new to the idea of being one. Ryu’s father and I have been separated for a good 6-7 mo. now and well we’re trying to make the best out of it. The hardest part of this all is we still do live together for financial reasons. At this moment we’ve decided (or at least he did) that he’s going to venture off within the next 3 months and to pretty much get myself ready to do things on my own. We’re trying to figure out how we’re going to divide the time for Ryu because this just seems far worst than a normal breakup or divorce. Having any type of separation with children involved makes the situation much more difficult. I think in the beginning of it all I was being unreasonable to give Romeo and type of custody to see his son due to my pain and selfishness. To make a long story short, I gave in and he and I are trying to be civil and it takes baby steps to be friends. I think we’re slowly getting there, but of course it took a lot from my part to calm down and look at it from a realistic point of view. I can’t be selfish at least not when it comes to my son. As much as I want to take him away from his father I have absolutely no reason to. Romeo’s a great dad and he will continue to remain and be in Ryu’s life and in my life. Therefore, being friends would be the easiest way to do so.

At this point I’ve got to figure out what typical single parents do:

  • Job?
  • Housing?
  • Transportation?
  • Childcare?
  • Expenses?

I have to think about all of that in a span of 3 months. I need to buckle down and start somewhere. Things might not be perfect, but the holidays are coming up. I need to make the best out of this difficult situation for my son. It’s not his fault his parents aren’t meant to be together and can’t seem to find a solid ground together. However, what his parents can provide is two happy homes that’s going to love him twice as much!

If you all relate or need some advice I’d love to talk. I’d love to know what other single mommies out there are doing. How they got through tough times alone?